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I am a firm believer in the motto, “You can do anything,” but with a lot, and I mean, A LOT, of hard work. Well, I’ve put in the hard work, and yes, I’ve experienced in my own life that I can do anything. So when I quit my job, I was convinced the world was my oyster.
Last week, when meeting up with our friend, Justin, for Korean fried chicken, he said, “the world is still your oyster; it’s just cloudy out today.” The sentiment touched my heart, but I continued to divulge how the job search has been a struggle.
I was beginning to wonder if I was living in this idealistic world where inspirational phrases like ‘you can do anything,’ ‘believe in yourself,’ ‘do what you love,’ was actually the key to success and happiness, or was it all bullshit? I have read a lot of stuff on the internet about entrepreneurs, small business owners, and startups, and I always marvelled at how they were able to overcome their fears and follow their dreams. But I rarely read stories similar to my own, where someone quit their job because of burnout and then couldn’t find a job.
I’m guilty of writing idealistic posts about following your dreams and doing what you love. I know it’s not that simple, which is why I always emphasize hard work. However, this experience has been a major reality check, such that my self-esteem has hit an all time low since being unemployed. Since the age of 15, I’ve always had a job except when in school full-time (read more here). At first, the break was exactly what I needed in order to recover, but after Europe and weeks upon weeks of being at home, job searching, writing cover letters, filling out applications, and hearing nothing back, it’s been disheartening to say the least.
I try to remind myself that things will get better and things could always be worse, but it’s hard. Most days, when I’m home alone, I feel like I’m hanging out with a mirror that’s reflecting all my faults and failures back at me. I’m used to succeeding in life and I’ve always thought highly of myself, so this setback has been a humbling experience.
So is it bullshit? Yes and no. It’s bullshit to think that having a degree and some work experience will get you everything you want in life. But it’s not bullshit to believe in yourself and to believe that you can do anything. Even though life is trying to prove me wrong right now, I still believe in myself and I still believe I can do anything.